Category: Life

I recently realized that almost every issue in my life can be grasped with just one word.  Ambivalence.  This profound truth came to me in a moment of unexpected revelation during a casual, random conversation with my sister.  We were sitting on the kitchen floor, our backs pressed against the white cabinets under the sink,…

For a while now I’ve been wanting to get up for the sunrise, ever since I saw a random social media post that talked about “Sunrise Sundays”. I liked it (social media-ly speaking, *heart*, but also, in the emotional sense). Sunrises every Sunday. I felt inspired. I should do that. It would be amazing. Maybe it…

Dear Life, I love you. I know I’ve left you wondering, many times, if I really did, and how much. I know I’ve confused you by playing hot and cold. Coming around, so engaging, playful, affectionate, and then closing off, retreating into myself, becoming stand-offish and reserved. I have drawn you in, and then pulled…

33 Days of Truth: Day 33 Truth This 33 Days of Truth challenge has transformed me. Subtly, yet profoundly. I feel fuller, more whole, more truly myself. Some things that I have held back and kept silent about for many years, have been released and expressed. What a relief! I’ve cleared it out. Made space. Created breathing…

33 Days of Truth: Day 32 Now What I used to live on Maui. Past tense. Now I live in California (again). Present. I feel as though I’ve traveled through dimensions and time warped. Was it all a dream? Did I just wake up? Am I still dreaming…? I’ve been there and back again. The circle has…

33 Days of Truth: Day 31 Songwriting “Everybody should be able to make some music. That’s the cosmic dance.” – Maude Songwriting has been one of the greatest discoveries of my life. At a time when I really needed a way to open up and express my heart, I found an outlet by putting emotions into…

33 Days of Truth: Day 30 Letting Go Day 30 of my 33 Days of Truth challenge. I have officially written every single day for a month! Woohoo!  That by itself is such a huge breakthrough for me. After a lifetime of holding back and struggling with my creative self-expression, this is by far the most…

33 Days of Truth: Day 29 Over the Hump Day 29 of my 33 Days of Truth challenge! Ok, technically I’m supposed to be on day 30 and running behind. But my last post, The Great Wait, took a lot more time and energy to write than any others, and I had to take an additional…

33 Days of Truth: Day 28 The Great Wait I once read a prompt for telling your life story in six words or less. I wrote:  When the great wait is over.  I’ve held myself back in a lot of ways in my life, but the biggest of all was in waiting for love, and…

33 Days of Truth: Day 27 Home I looked out the little airplane window and saw the Pacific Ocean below, a rippled sheet of dark emerald. Long lines of white-tipped waves made their way to the shore, toward sand dunes and brown cliffs. Then there it was. The rugged California coastline. I can trace my…